Insight in the healing of breathing
Dear Friends,
last week I became restless because I noticed that I had some strong defensive reactions in different situations. Anxiety was born: I was not aware of this restlessness. What are the roots of this defensiveness? This practice of deep looking into myself, reflecting, showed me some habit patterns and some insight. Today, biking, I was listening to Thich Nhat Hanh in his book ‘the art of living’. This was the third time I listened to it. But now, in my craving for insight in my restlessness a small part was a powerful boost in better understanding myself. I could let it in, with a clear connection with my reaction patterns. The topic is craving. Desire, thirst are also words to describe this. I share his insight with you. Buddha used the simple metaphor of a fish that gets hooked. The fish sees a nutritious piece of food in the water and the fish bites the bait. The fish lacked mindfulness: he didn’t notice the hook in the bait. So he gets hooked and caught. Similar to the hook in the bait there is also a hook hidden in our craving to material goods, success, money, distraction that gives us an unfulfilled feeling of safety and grip. Insight liberates us from this craving. We know that the object of our craving for material things don’t give us peace and happiness. We know we don’t want to get hooked and spend all our time and energy on it. En yet, we can’t let go. We need to take time to stop, reflect deeply on our situation to identify what it is we are craving for. We have to identify the hook. What is the danger? What is the suffering, hidden in it. Every desire has its root in our original, fundamental desire to survive. There is the insight that this original fear and desire that manifested in us during our birth, in this precarious moment we took our first painful breath. Our mother could no longer breath for us, it was difficult to inhale, we first had to expel water from our longs. We made it. We were born. And with that birth our fear of dying was born along with the strong desire to survive. This stayed with us and we knew that we, in order to survive, we had to take someone to take care of us, and we figured out all kinds of different ways how to get someone to protect us. Even though we have grown into adults, this original fear and the desire to survive are still alive. We are afraid of being alone, to be abandoned, of getting old, we have a strong thirst for connection, to someone who takes care of us. If we work non-stop that may be because of our original fear that otherwise we cannot survive. And our own fear and desire may come from our ancestors’ original fear and desire. They suffered from hunger, war, exile, over thousands of years. If fear, craving and desire comes up we need to be able to recognize this with mindfulness and smile to it with compassion. Hello, fear. Hello, craving. Hello, little child. Hello, ancestors. To follow our breathing, in the safe island of this moment we can transmit the energy of stability, compassion and non-fear to this child in us and to our ancestors. In this way, our practice, applied in our daily life, can transform the roots of our suffering. I decided to listen to this text and write it down. Bit by bit. This was a very good practice, because there was enough mindfulness, concentration and I can really connect to it. A better understanding of my patterns of defensiveness. There is also more insight in the teaching: in suffering is happiness. Making mistakes are also steps on my path. Maybe they are essential. Because, without these touching’s I wouldn’t have made this step and insight. But the largest nourishment is a better understanding of returning to my (first) breath. Inhaling, Exhaling. So gratitude to my restlessness. So this is my invitation to join us at our Sangha evening, coming Monday, to practice, connect, deepen insight, smile and share. I wish you a weekend full of mindfulness bells, in all forms, so that you can return to your breath….
Warm greetings, Joost Vriens. NB: Because of the holiday-period, there will be no Online Sangha from July, 11 until August 1st. You can join the live Sangha at the Schatkamer. |
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